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Are We Genetic Cogs in a Growing Malignancy?

admin July 20th, 2010

Yes it has been some time since I last posted to this blog. Still suffering from a bit of the “I’m not a good enough person to write this” miasma. But there are issues of simple living that deserve to be discussed and written about so I’m back in the game.

Several people have posted replies lately suggesting that what is most valuable to them is to hear how other people are struggling with living simply on a day-to-day basis, so I’ll share a dilemma I’ve just been through.

You might have guessed, if you read very many posts on this blog, that I’m a bit of a Luddite. Actually I do believe that part of our current environmental, economic, and spiritual crisis is that humanity has grown and behaved like a cancer over the past few centuries (some writers say far longer). It began as a virtually unnoticeable spot on the earth’s lungs, but over the years grew faster and faster until it has metastasized to every corner of the earth putting the earth and humanity in peril.

I believe that our cancerous behavior is driven both by of our inflated egos and our over-developed technology working in tandem. This dynamic has propelled us to exponentially use up much of the earth’s bounty and pollute what we haven’t already used up. This process has dramatically accelerated with the digital revolution, geometrically enlarging our blighting footprint.

Many, if not most, Americans would say that this process has been a very good thing because it has made us a great country, given us comfort, good health, longer lives, easier work, and much wealth. How could you argue with that?

Easy… when you look beyond these shallow benefits (shallow, compared to the health of the rest of the world) and look at all of the effects of this industrialzing-digitizing process.

BUT, as I’ve mentioned in previous posts, even I, the great Luddite critic, love technological toys: computers, phones, cameras, etc. On the other hand, recognizing the ecological and human moral dilemma they create, I have tried to limit my use of these gadgets as much as I can and I encourage others to do likewise.

We were about the last people on the block to have a cell phone (got one because my wife’s old car was in constant danger of breaking down), then kept the first one so long that people were laughing at our big clunky fossil. I keep desktop computers for many years, patching and swapping out components. Don’t have a PDA, GPS, or book reader – which sometimes leaves my friends and family shaking their heads.

We do the same thing with old fashioned technologies like air conditioning which we run only in a couple of rooms when the temp is above 95 degrees, then shut them off.

These greenish practices certainly do not make us subsistence farmers with kerosene lanterns and a mule. We still have an urban/suburban lifestyle here in the close-in D.C. suburbs. But we try to slow down enough and live responsibly enough to make a difference and still be able to live in an urban setting.

So it’s a moral dilemma every time I have to decide whether or not to buy another gadget. I have avoided buying a laptop/notebook computer for years – really didn’t need one even if it would have been handy on occasion. But (there’s always a ‘but’) I decided that we needed one for our puppet theater business in order to run our audio and back stage cueing.

When I was close to making this decision several things began happening in rapid sequence.

    1. The adrenalin started pumping: “A new Toy! Oh boy! It’ll be sooo cool. We’ll be just like everyone else! Oh my God… we’ll be just like everyone else. Oh NO!”

    In fact there is recent research that shows this adrenalin rush is a real physiological change that occurs when we are making a buying decision. It is what energizes compulsive shopping, but it happens to all of us, even ME! Oh please God, don’t let it happen to me! But it does.

    2. And then the guilt and bargaining set in. “But we really need it. My memory is fading fast (aging) so I need the cue support during shows, and with worsening cataracts I need a big display so I can see where we are in the script; we need it to run a digital projector; Ok, OK, we’ll buy a cheap refurb; we have held off buying one for years, so it’s OK now; you can’t do business in today’s world without one; we’ll be able to work on scripts while on the road…”

Endless BS.

But could we really get along without one?

Yep – sure could! We could continue to be a traditional, old fashioned puppet show instead of one that’s more state-of-the-art, and I could suck it up and just deal with my infirmities – no one has thrown us out of their school or church yet because of them.

Of course I bought one!

The chemistry of seduction got me, and it probably will be useful from time to time.

Here’s my question: how can I continue wearing my Luddite T-shirt while warning about a technologically driven “end of the world” while ‘buying-in’ to the cancer I know is eating away at God’s world?

Sure, I don’t buy electronics very often, but every bit matters.

Almost everyone I’ve explained this to says “Oh it’s just fine – it’s for the business.” But is it really? Should ‘doing businesses justify everything we do whether it’s destructive or not? Business is part of the cancer along with our individual egocentric wants.

And is all this simply over-reasoning and creating a smoke screen to cover up the fact that my ego caved-in to the adrenaline rush? Am I just a genetic cog in the wheel of an ecological cancer? Is there no hope for us as a species?

Please let us all know how you handle these things by posting a reply.

Simplifying Christian Anarchy

admin April 13th, 2010

I’m coming closer to believing that the notion of Christian Anarchy (for a quickie refresher on what Christian Anarchy is, see my previous posts here and here) is a very good way to think about living the Christian life in general and Christian simple living in particular.

But there are problems too

It comes across as a very negative way of seeing the faith. Even the name, Christian Anarchy, is negative if not frightening. Many of the works discussing it spend much of their time on what’s wrong with human organizations (“the powers” in the Bible), or ‘arkies’ (Vernard Eller’s shorthand for any of the world’s ‘archical’ or hierarchical organizations). Tolstoy and Ellul were not a cheery bunch of writers either! And my own foggy musings are pretty negative as well.

It’s never a good idea to describe something by what it is not, or to sell a concept as a glass half empty!

It’s also a very complicated idea to understand as well as describe, which makes it difficult to translate into something practical and useful.

Part of the problem is that the classic works on Christian Anarchy (which I’ll refer to as CA from here on) like those of Leo Tolstoy, Jacques Ellul, SØren Kierkegaard, Vernard Eller, etc., are focused on the theology, philosophy, or sociology of CA rather than its practical application. And although Eller clearly says that CA is not ‘anti’ anything, but rather is just being not interested or impressed by the powers, some of these thinkers are very much anti- government, anti-capitalist, or anti-hierarchies in general, giving their views a radical twist.

Contemporary CA practitioners often organize social justice programs such as Dorothy Day and the Catholic Worker Movement (a very good thing) (http://www.catholicworker.org/) or promote radical political positions such as Graham Cameron’s (http://christiananarchy.com/articles/).

These are big thinkers and big doers intent on changing the world, or a significant part of it. But there are probably a lot of people who, like me,  don’t want to virtually take  sword in hand and march out to right the world’s wrongs, but merely want to live a good, and even occasionally courageous personal life where they are with the people around them. And most of us probably aren’t intent on tearing things down to do it.

And I just don’t agree that Christian Anarchy is primarily about being a social activist or political revolutionary. I believe that CA principles can apply to all Christians who are really trying to follow Christ, like Christian simple livers, and that we should be able to use the positive norms and values inherent in CA to help build-up ourselves, our congregations and our communities.

I also think that when you use the tenets of CA to create a social or political organization, you have already violated the spirit, if not the definition of CA by creating yet another arky. And since these organizations are created by mere mortals to carry out their own parochial visions, by definition they become just another worldly arky with all their natural human flaws.

… and so we’re right back to where we started – and we probably aren’t in the Kingdom of God yet!

So in an effort to see a practical and hopeful side to CA, I’ve started to think through the issue of practicality – and I emphasize the word started. I’ll keep you posted on my thoughts as they occur to me.

Here goes:

Life Among the Arkies

Christian Anarchy, as well as traditional Christian belief hold that we should live only according to God’s ‘Arky’ and not according to the world’s arkies or in Biblical terms “the powers” – rich and powerful people, organizations, and governments.

As I have defined CA in previous posts (derived from the writers mentioned above, particularly Eller), CA sounds a lot like The Kingdom of God as Jesus might have described it, in the sense that all of The Kingdom’s members would be joyfully living according to God’s law and Jesus’ teachings rather than the world’s values. That may actually be the simple definition of CA and its goal as well!

That would put Christian Anarchy adherents and its practitioners in pretty good company but, like The Kingdom of God as described in the New Testament, CA theory doesn’t give us a lot of help in figuring out how to actually live it as a practical matter. Jesus merely noted that various people were “coming close to the Kingdom.”

No membership manual! He basically said “just do it!” Of course He said a lot more than that, but mostly he taught by example and we have precious few of those examples in the Bible. It leaves me hungering for much more. I learn best through examples and I just get confused when I read things, and especially when I try to write.

So OK, how are we to behave in the arky known as the Kingdom of God? And how does that mean we should relate to, if we are to relate to them at all, the world’s arkies – our government, political parties, fraternal and civic organizations, the corner store and global corporations?

If these arkies surround us and we have to interact with them every day, and they are not to be trusted or followed per Eller’s view of CA, then what is left for us to do and how would our behavior be different from those who do follow the world’s arkies – often blindly or unknowingly – which would include a majority of folks in modern consumer culture?

As I first thought about it I really got bogged down in a long list of do’s and don’ts for living a CA life. In the end it seemed like hair-splitting legalism – and long.

So I took cues from the Gospels and my own meditation practice and things started getting simpler.

The World’s Arky Assumptions and Values

In our culture with its worldly arkies, we tend to pay attention, and often buy into, its arky assumptions, values, desires, and activities – often unconsciously and uncritically. Some of the biggest, broadest assumptions and values could be: “Growth is good (or bad);” “Look out for number one;” “You should always be or look young;” “Success is the most important thing;” “Make as much money as you can;” “The end justifies the means;” “Shoot for the stars;” “Everyone should take care of themselves,” “survival of the fittest,” “Cheapest is best.”

More specific assumptions might include: “Health care reform is good (or bad);” SUVs are good (or bad);” “People should always think you’re on top of things – buy the newest cell phone/PDA/computer/game/car/house;” “Conservatism or liberalism is good while the other is bad;” “The profitability of the company is more important than its employees.”

We believe these notions to be true only because we’ve heard them much of our lives. But where do they come from? We didn’t invent them.

These basic assumptions about life came to us via the thousands of arkies we know and love (or hate), whether they are political parties, corporations, the corner store, the Government, Rotary Club, Boy/Girl Scouts, or schools.

In the end most of these assumptions have a focus on ‘self’, what’s good for me or us, whether it is to be right, rich, powerful, beautiful, successful, or just happy. The arkies advertised these values to us pervasively, although often surreptitiously, and over the years we began to believe them. All arkies do this because the values they espouse support their goals and ultimate success, whether it is to achieve its mission, make money, have influence, “right wrongs,” (as defined by the arky), or “make the world safe for…”

So to a certain extent all worldly arkies are disingenuous because they aren’t primarily concerned about your, my, or anyone else’s welfare. Even when their goal is to be compassionate, like The Church (an arky if there ever was one), a social service or disaster relief organization, the arky itself takes on some of the less-than-compassionate characteristics of their founder’s and leader’s personalities.

An arky’s true goal, despite its hype, morphs toward promoting and maintaining the organization itself and the positions of those who own, manage, or work in it. Even in compassionate organizations, the goal is organizational success, and individual needs begin to take a back seat to the hierarchy (all organizations have them) and its arky goals. In arkies that don’t start with compassionate goals, things can be a lot worse if not blatantly immoral or illegal.

Living Under The Arky of God

So, after all this arky bashing, what’s so great about the Arky of God, and how would we live in it in contradistinction to how we live amongst the world’s arkies?

Simply put, we must live by the norms, values, and assumptions of God’s Arky (Kingdom) as found in such places as the Sermon on the Mount, the Ten Commandments, and the laws of the Pentateuch, and never equivocate or make accommodations with the arkies on these matters. We don’t put them aside if our employer arky, government arky, or our political arky sees it otherwise. We don’t ever allow arkies to be our proxies or stand-ins for God’s values.

This means that we live with equanimity and compassion about all things and all people whether we agree with them or even like them or not, seeing things as they actually are, not as we are told they are, and not judging but acting with compassion towards all people. Living this way can be easily inferred from Jesus’ teachings and it would be living only under the Arky of God, and not being led or controlled by other arkies of any stripe.

Living with equanimity means we don’t follow any arky’s predetermined philosophy, principles, rules, or hierarchical structures and organizations, none of which function purely with compassion. But it also means that we don’t hate, abuse, take advantage of, or misuse the arky and its people because we see things differently. We must be compassionate with them too. We just don’t buy-in.

Living with equanimity and compassion under God’s Arky would mean never consciously or unconsciously buying the “whole package” of any worldly arky’s mission, principles, rules, or advice. Instead we would try to see clearly, in an unbiased way, what the arky along with its hierarchy and rules actually does and how that affects people and the rest of the world. We ask whether or not any part of the arky or its actions are consistent with CA. When it is we can go along with it on an instance-by-instance basis. When it is not, we don’t “go along to get along,” and we may need to end our association with that arky regardless of personal consequences.

This, of course is not at all easy. It takes a lot of practice, honesty with ourselves and others, and support from our like-minded Christian community.

More important, it takes a reordering of our minds so we can see clearly with astute awareness and discernment – again a very tall order for most of us because we’ve spent our entire lives living according to what the arkies tell us while abusing our own psyches in the process.

I have found insight meditation practice in combination with deep prayer to be extremely helpful in gaining some amount of clarity in discerning my reactions and responses to the arkies and my personal relationships as well. Without this practice I’m not sure I’d be able to attempt it at all.

To close out this ramble, I’d like to add that I believe Christian Anarchy directly supports Christian simple living. Most of our self-centered consumer behavior is actually based on the messages and values the various arkies have fed us, and getting past those arky assumptions makes it much easier to live authentic, simple lives that are closer to Jesus’ teachings, and doing so without rancor or bitterness toward the world of the arkies.

God’s peace.

I’m a Hypocrite

admin March 3rd, 2010

I just have to clear the air about something before I go on to write any more posts.

I’ve been thinking a lot about Paul’s letter to the Romans. Our adult Sunday school class is doing a study of Romans at the moment, but what has been running through my mind has less to do with the class and more to do with my bumbling, stumbling, sometimes less than simple or faithful life.

I am particularly struck with Paul’s self-revelation that:

“I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, in my sinful nature. For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. For what I do is not the good I want to do; no, the evil I do not want to do–this I keep on doing. Now if I do what I do not want to do, it is no longer I who do it, but it is sin living in me that does it.” (Romans 7:18-20, NIV).

Oh, that’s me through and through! Often as I sit writing these posts I begin to feel hypocritical because they don’t often describe what goes on in my soul or my addled brain. And what goes on in there isn’t always so pure, giving, or simple as some of my posts might imply.

I have written a lot about the foundation of Christian simple living being love and compassion for God’s people and his creation. But I have not written enough about my own struggle trying to be loving and compassionate while at the same time, being far from the genuinely caring person I would like to be and should be.

I have always had a real problem with a low-grade selfishness and defensive anger. I’m pretty good at keeping them under wraps with other people (not to mention while writing blog posts), but they are always lurking around inside my head, twisting my feelings and perceptions. I tend to get frustrated and angry easily when things aren’t going my way, and all of these un-loving traits really put a damper on actually being the kind of person Jesus asks us to be. It is said that loving kindness is supposed to be our natural response to the love God shows for us. But for me it isn’t natural and too often isn’t there at all.

I feel like Paul even to his point of writing “Now if I do what I do not want to do, it is no longer I who do it, but it is sin living in me that does it.” Often my anger at myself and others occurs in an instant – so fast that it takes me by surprise, as if someone else were controlling me. Now, having some professional background in the mental health field, I know that isn’t the case, but it sure feels that way and I know exactly what Paul was writing about.

It can be very depressing because I work hard at trying to change these irrational feelings. I pray and meditate on it daily, and try to become more like what Christ asks of us. But it’s a long hard struggle and sometimes (OK, often) not successful. I feel like giving up.

There is now substantial brain research showing that far more of our behavior and feelings are genetic, chemical, and neurological than mental health professionals used to believe, so some of this comes with us into the world rather than it all being intra-psychic processes. Like substance abuse, these ‘innate’ emotions can make us feel like they’re totally out of our control.

Of course, both from a psychological and faith point of view, regardless of how in-born some of these traits might be, they still belong to us, and we have a responsibility to the rest of the world (as well as ourselves) to tame them and make the best of them. I believe that was inherent in Christ’s message.

So once in a while, I remember that I have made some changes over the years. I have become a little more compassionate and a little less reactive through meditation and prayer. It’s just that I’m not anywhere near where I should be, and I’m terrified that my blog posts make me out to be, what I might call, an intuitive lover: one who loves instinctively and well, and therefore lives a very joyful and naturally simple life.

After all, only someone who is really good at all this, and is well-practiced and disciplined in compassion and living simply would be in a position to write about it for the whole world, right?

Not in my case! I write, not because I’m so good at living this way, but because I think these things are desperately important, and that we should all be working on becoming compassionate Christian simple livers. I believe it’s what Christ expects of us, so we all have to do what we can – being on the journey together.

So I find some comfort in knowing that Paul had his moments too. I guess when you get right down to it though, I’m a neophyte at walking the compassionate talk, and at least a little bit hypocritical. I guess it’s another thing I’ll have to make the best of, because here it is, and it ain’t going away!

So I’ll press on, hoping that you will understand.

Thanks for reading.

Car Angst

admin October 21st, 2009

Well, it’s been another long dry spell for new posts. I’m very sorry for the absence. From now on I will schedule my week so that I get in more timely posts – promise!

During the dry spell, though, I encountered another simple living ethical dilemma and I’d love to hear from some of you on how you handle these things.

For some time we have had two vehicles: a fourteen year old Subaru which we got used, and an eleven year old minivan (also used) that we use for trucking our puppet ministry paraphernalia to schools and churches for shows. I’ve been worried about their dependability for some time so I started looking for a used replacement for one of them. Then the cash for clunkers program popped up and I found that with the government’s cash plus a whopping discount by a local dealer, I could get a new low-end van for the same price as the used vans I’d looked at. So I decided to go for it.

Oh, the buyer’s remorse!! Or perhaps the simple liver’s remorse.

I really can’t remember the last time I bought a new car. I’ve almost always bought used cars because that is both economically and ecologically sound purchasing, so my first pang of anguish was over abandoning this long-held value. This evolved into an extended back and forth with myself over whether or not this was morally the right way to go:

    YES, it’s better to buy used because it makes better use of what has already been built and saves resources, BUT NO, a new vehicle will serve us longer and is therefore economic good sense, BUT YES, a new van would be less polluting, BUT NO – I’m only doing this for the thrill of buying a brand new shiny toy and its short lived adrenalin payoff, BUT YES, all vehicles die no matter what and sooner or later I have to get another one – better to get 15 or 20 full years out of a new one rather than 10 to 12 years from a used one, BUT NO, I’m abandoning a deeply held, nearly religious principle to pursue an ego need, BUT… and so on… and the angst still lingers.

It also raised many issues around what is and is not the most economical and ecologically sound way to go when buying and maintaining vehicles.

As a purely rational, data-driven decision, it quickly gets very complicated. I would need to calculate many parameters and populate them with current data including the total life cycle cost both the new, used, and current vehicles prorated for inflation and improved efficiencies of both manufacturing (including its pollution from mine to manufacturing to recycling and blast furnace) and operating each vehicle in terms of cost and ecological impact, along with estimates of average lifetime and maintenance costs of both and the economic impact of keeping my current car or buying new or used on my vanishing finances.

Even the current trend to hybrids didn’t help. Not only where there no hybrid vans available, it turns out that their environmental efficiency isn’t as good as that claimed by manufacturers when you include the mining and manufacturing pollution and resource depletion for these highly technologically complex machines driven by batteries sometimes requiring exotic metals, as well as the weight of hybrids compared to comparably sized conventional cars (battery and wire for electric motors and more complex drive train, etc.).

And, I suppose I’d even have to know how to add and subtract to figure all that out. Phat chanse.

So, after reading many “expert” opinions on all of this I found many diverse (often not really “evidence based,” but merely personal) opinions that were often at odds with each other. No help there!

Then of course there is the argument for having no motorized vehicles at all and instead using public transportation, shoe leather, and a bicycle – an excellent thing to do – but it would put a serious dent in our puppetry business (having to move stages, sound equipment scenery, puppeteers, etc.) and I wouldn’t feel safe commuting in a heavy traffic urban area on my bike anymore after too many hip surgeries.

Ouch! Too many complications!

So, blinded by the facts, I went ahead and made the primarily emotional decision to take the money and go for the new one. On the positive side, the new one does get better gas mileage and it has somewhat better pollution controls. On the negative side, I’m now much poorer, but on the positive side again, that might make Jesus happy.

Not a good experience – and I don’t feel good about the new van either. Too much money, too little satisfaction, and I still don’t know if it was the best thing to do!

So what’s the solution for all those times we will all have to buy something, and don’t want to buy what we don’t need, and also want to be sure that what we do buy isn’t aiding and abetting the destruction of God’s world?

Our brains aren’t big enough to figure all this out!

That’s literally the conclusion I came to, which can actually be seen as a theological as well as a simple living issue. One of the reasons we should rely on God, is that we’ve got small brains (compared to the size and complexity of the universe), and on top of that we have historically not been very wise as a species. We’ve spent thousands of years building our towers of Babble, one after the other, each time followed by much celebrating and back-slapping, and then despair as the thing crumbles… again.

Reason and logic can be great tools for routine day-to-day tasks, but we should keep in mind that we still can’t even predict the weather accurately beyond a two to five day horizon. I won’t even get into the accuracy of economic models or the policies they support!

For the complex or very long term issues, we come up way short when we rely exclusively on our number crunching and model building. I’ve worked in the research area for a number of years and I believe the most important thing I learned was that our research and our data, while useful, has severe limits and we aren’t good at recognizing when we’ve reached those limits.

Instead, when it comes to such complexity, we should consult what evidence exists, and then follow the prophets’ and Jesus’ teachings to do the best we can not to harm other people or god’s world, and to trust that our faith in Him will get us through along with a healthy dose of grace – data or no data.

What do you think?

Blindsided by My Brain Stem

admin April 23rd, 2009

I have to apologize for not having posted anything for a month and a half. My life suddenly became chaotic last month when I was diagnosed with type 2 diabetes. Unfortunately it left me with little time or mental space to do much on the Christian Simple Living web site or blog.

But as a result of this experience I’m learning a lot about myself, about being a Christian, and living simply, or if not learning, at least asking a lot of questions.

My reaction to the diagnosis was instantaneous and strong, to the point that it nearly wiped-out many of my conscious decisions about caring for others and living simply. My ego completely took over my emotional life and my decision making which, in itself was very upsetting after having spent so many years cultivating a different way of living. I’m told by diabetes specialists that this is ‘normal’ for the newly diagnosed, but it didn’t feel normal to me since it was destroying my ability to live simply and in a caring way.

As I met with doctors, educators, and nutritionists to devise a treatment plan, my ego did not care one wit about others but focused only on the things I would be losing in this ordeal. I was frustrated and angry, feeling betrayed because I had spent years living well – exercising regularly, eating a low-fat vegetarian diet, seeing doctors regularly, (and giving up a lot in order to do it all) and still got slammed with this disease – which means giving up still more things I love. It made me feel like my life was over, and I was bitter.

But through it all I learned something important: exactly how powerful our egos can be and how difficult they can make trying to live a caring, simple life. And if our egos can make it tough for some of the most dedicated of us, then imagine how hard it is for the not-so-dedicated folks out there, to make the decision to start caring about others and caring about how they live, then living more simply for the rest of their lives.

Our primitive brain stem functions have something to do with the structure of our egos – it reacts nearly autonomically to keep us alive and feeling safe, but in a non-thinking way, so anything that happens to, or around us is going to generate a defensive reaction if it is at all threatening. But I naively thought that we had, over the millennia, gained much more ability to over-ride those primitive defensive reactions through education, training, practice, desire, support, etc., than we, or I, actually have. No such thing!

My reaction to this diagnosis went like this: “I’m going to eat any bloody thing I want, dammit!” (not caring about the damage it would do to me in the long run,) “Those cretins,” (doctors, nurses, and diabetes educators,) “can’t order me around!” (not caring about the good work they did or the care with which they gave it,) “I don’t care if I die from it, I’m going to live the way I want to!” (not caring about my family or myself, and…) “I’m mad as hell and I don’t care who knows it!” (not caring about anyone in the general vicinity.)

I knew this was ‘trash talk’ all the while I was saying these things, but the brain stem part of my ego pushed right past that feeble thought, to demand that I be treated right no matter what.

I have been totally blown away by the power and persistence of my primitive ego to trash nearly every caring or constructive motive I’ve ever had – all in the service of my defensive ego!

I was told that this is a common reaction, so I’m led to have much more respect for the task ahead of us as simple livers in spreading our philosophy to the wider world. The world’s collective brain stems and primitive ego responses are largely not going to permit a large number of people to begin simple living after having lived a self-indulgent Western life style: “I’m not giving up a damn thing!” is what we can expect to hear from a majority of people, speaking from their brain stems, and they’re not likely to change much… unless forced. The current recession-depression has nudged many people in our direction, but that’s the result of force, and a good bit of it is probably lip service, and temporary at that.

In the end, I didn’t really have a choice other than to adjust my life to deal with the disease, that is if I wanted to live a healthy life rather than suffering a very slow, unpleasant decline towards death. I was essentially forced to deal with it, like it or not.

Similarly, the majority of the population isn’t going to substantially shift to simple living unless they are faced with an offer they “can’t refuse,” i.e., force, such as water, food, fuel, and housing shortages so severe that it becomes too expensive for them to afford enough of these items for a comfortable life; an atmosphere and water that are too polluted or too hot or too cold, to actually live decently; or a social breakdown that becomes an immediate threat to their lives. The environment and society as a whole, will have to present most folks with the choice of “change or die!” before a significant number chose to live simply and sustainably.

So are we to give up trying to convince others to join us since the task is difficult? Are we all eventually going to cave-in to our own primitive egos? Is mankind salvageable?

More on these things over the next few weeks.

Escape From Desperation:Part 3 – From Escape to Living Simply

admin February 19th, 2009

Although meditation has made a big difference in my life, it does take a lot of time and effort to do it meaningfully, and like many other practitioners, I periodically slowed down or stopped practicing at times. It was during one of those lulls that I became interested in simple living.

I always felt that the Church in general, and I in particular, had rarely come close to living the life Jesus taught and that the early Church practiced (think “Sermon on the Mount”) with a few exceptions like the Anabaptists. The older I’ve gotten, the more this has nagged my soul, so I finally began to investigate both simple living and Anabaptist history. After a short time I decided that I really did want to begin practicing simple living in an attempt to become a little more of a disciple and to find a meaningful Christian practice that had real roots.

I began changing my life style and encouraged others to come along as well. I determined to:
• Spend less money and buy less stuff.
• Stop buying so many hi-tech gadgets.
• Recycle everything.
• Become much more environmentally responsible in everything I did.
• Not have a cell phone (but I eventually did get one because my 13 year old car was no longer as dependable as I liked, so the cell phone was a security blanket on the road).
• Eat organic and eat less meat. I eventually became vegetarian (a heart attack hastened my decision to become vegetarian with the aid of the Dean Ornish plan, which fit perfectly in the simple living and environmental responsibility niche).

A lot in a short period of time. This did help me to feel a part of the centuries-old Anabaptist tradition, and I felt like I was doing a little something for the world as well. In fact it did feel more like I was practicing discipleship if only in a small way.

But there was something missing.

Since I had not practiced meditation regularly for a little while, the ‘old me’ was taking over again. For me, a basic premise in modern simple living is that our way of life, all of our daily actions, should be driven by love and compassion: don’t do to others what you don’t want them to do to you; take care of your neighbors; welcome the stranger; first, do no harm (to borrow a medical dictum).

Although I think I was doing the right things based on this, it was sometimes hard to make decisions on how to live and what to do, because that basic feeling of compassion wasn’t there in my decision making, and there was less and less of a parallel between my simple living practices and how I was thinking about and treating people. So my living was probably not as helpful to me or others as it should have been.

I found that there was a big difference between just adopting voluntary simplicity practices, no matter how theologically well thought out they were, and having a deep, rich faith life out of which simple living emerges as an obvious response to Jesus’ love. After all, many secular people, organizations, and communities practice voluntary simplicity. Does that make them Christian Disciples? Probably not.

I think that not having a strong, vibrant faith life and practice leads to superficial and short lived behavior changes which can be ‘trendy’ rather than a deeply-rooted way of living. I realized that I had fallen off the wagon.

I began to see that prayerful meditation was my bedrock for simple living because it made living simply an intuitive and natural response rather than a slavish adherence to what can be politically correct or trendy practices (secular or faith-based). So I needed to reinvest myself in meditation and prayer so my soul could catch up with my head.

Doing that opened-up an entirely new universe for me – one that has, of course, always been there, but was hidden. Living simply as a practicing Christian became alive, intuitive, exciting, and joyful. Much better than politically correct!

My desperation began to lift. There was no longer the pressure to have the most up-to-date stuff. I didn’t feel like I needed much more of anything, felt more secure about it, and actually began to feel happy and contented with the “lower standard of living” that we had adopted. I also regained my ability to see people in a more loving way, and once again became less angry with myself and the world: it felt good! It felt right!

I know that many others before me and around me now are already joyfully living this non-compliant ‘other way’ – I’m just a slow-learning late comer! But, I suppose, “better late than never.” Living simply has become a joy and a meditation in itself, that reflexively deepens my spiritual life as well as the other way around. I hope that others, who have not already found a door to this universe will find their’s as well.

Please feel free to share your experiences in meditation, contemplation, or adopting simple living and their fit in your faith life.

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